Being Me
Published by GHC • May 19th, 2009 • Category: Odds & Ends, by mustang23by mustang23, age 13
I haven’t blogged in a while, and I’m kinda scared. I think I’m losing part of my love of horses.
Now, I will never leave, unless I feel the need, and I’m having way too much fun here, but it’s like I’m not obsessed with horses anymore. And it might sound kind of weird to you horse owners and absolutely horse crazy girls, but it’s all right that I’m not loving horses with my whole heart. At least it’s okay with me.
I’m fine with the fact that I’m getting more interested in music and, maybe, boys. But horses and you, my favorite horse girls, will never be replaced. Never.
I want to love horses wholly, completely, but it’s like part of me, the part that wants to change, grow, and be me is struggling to help me grow. I’m fine with not being totally engrossed with horses all the time. That’s just me. I’m maturing, growing, doing what I have to do to be me.
Maybe if I lived with horses, I would grow differently. But I don’t. I go months without seeing a horse in the flesh. And that breaks my heart, almost. Guess that’s what “teen” will do to you.
I just want to clarify one thing; I am not leaving. Ever. And you just hold onto that flame in your heart that loves horses, and you’ll be okay. I know I’ll be okay, but horses may take a less integral part in my life. Or they may not. You never know with life.
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I understand you completely… i used to be infatuated with dogs (I used to have a Golden when i was younger) but now im not. I still have a love for them expecpt i don’t spend much of my time around them. You do what you love. If you have a compassion for something you never give it up no matter how long it takes. Who knows, i work with horses but i might be 22 before i even own my own horse. Life has so many wonderful choices and creations out there you don’t have to center your life around just one (like horses). For instance i have a passion for Wildlife animals like Kolala, Kangeroos, duckbilled platypus (Aka Australian animals) and other wildlife. Again i will always enjoy horses but its not the only subject im gonna revolve around. Champion blog
~HF
mustang23, don’t worry about it. I went through a faze like that and didn’t ride half of what I usaly do and almost grudgingly the times I did; then that fall the flame suddanly exploded and my passion for these animals has never been higher.
So it might not last long at all.
I like the message you gave at the end of your blogs to show other girls that it is ok to explore other interests.
I had stopped paying attention to horses for a while, because I was going through the different problems that come with “teenager”. But now, it’s revived again, thanks to special friends (coughcoughRachel DaniellecoughcoughPonyTales), and I’m not about to give it up again, even if I’m not able to ride right now. Just remember to keep your most important dreams alive, and everything will be okay, God Willing.
I was so obsessed when I was younger! I was just plain creepy! All I wanted to talk about was horses, and sometimes, (this one’s embarrassing) I would even neigh. I’ve grown up a lot since then, and although I love horses, they aren’t the only thing I’m interested in.
thats completely fine! I have decided to become more serious about swim then horses. that dosnt change the fact i really love horses.
Thanks, guys, for all the positive feedback, and you know, I will always love horses, as I said in the blog, but they might not be so key. But with or without horses, I will always be your mustang23. I love y’all!
I discovered horses only last year. I think God was giving me a chance to fulfill my dream of loving horses by letting me “discover” them at the age most girls lost interest..Now, they are my life. I love all animals equally, but they are by far the most amazing to me…
I feel that way sometimes too. I used to be completely obsessed, it was weird. I’m still quite obsessed with horses, maybe more than I should at my age, but I’m interested in other things, too. I didn’t start riding until I was a bit older, I was 10 and most horse crazy girls are norally very young which is why I’m still quite obsessed!
Beautiful blog, mustang23…
Don’t worry. There is more of you than horses. That can be a big part of your life, still, and yet you can also have other interests and not be afraid.
I used to be obsessed too with horses, that’s toned down now. I mean I still am horsecrazy, but there’s other interests I’ve discovered I have. Like writing for instance. I never knew I loved it till I came here, but now I know.
Have fun in life, mustang23, and just be you.
I meant in one of my sentences I wrote: “I think God was giving me a chance to fulfill my dream of *owning* a horse, by letting me discover them at the age most girls lose interest”
I’ve always liked other stuff. But, the difference between us I think is that, those things I like have always been second-best to horses.
Good luck mustang23..Have fun in life